WRITING to be FREE

Apr 28

All my efforts was for nothing.

I tried my best but I guess it wasn’t good enough for her.

Am I doing to much?

Overly thinking things now, but I still don’t know what to do any more. I honestly just want to know the truth and how you feel and no BS. This has been on my mind because you are about to move and I don’t wanna chase after you if nothing is really gonna happen and I have been doing all this for months to lead to no where. If it wont happen I rather put all my efforts to something else, I thought faith brought us together for a purpose and I thought that was for us to be together but all that is going  on is that Im the only one putting an effort. I’m just getting tired of trying so hard for someone that doesn’t really care about it. You say you don’t play games but honestly it just feels like it. You have been playing me all along… well that’s how I feel about it, I would do anything for you and it seems like you just been using that. 

ALL I WANT IS THE TRUTH AND TO KNOW HOW YOU FEEL!!  GIVE ME AN ANSWER

Apr 27

Gotta Clear my head!!

For the 3 hour long workout, all my motivation was just thinking of busting someones head with the weights. Pumped twice as much as I normally do, This day would of been better and I probably wouldn’t be like this if she was to help. But whatever over it.. on to the next one I guess, it sucks that she gets stuck in my head. =/

Apr 11

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Feb 12

When she hits me up

kuyaejay:

I always seem to get the biggest smile.

Oct 17

NIGHTMARES

By @kuyaejay

The light falls and the day just turned dark

Am I in a dream.. 

Or Am I in a nightmare.

I’m Running for miles never knowing where to go. Just chasing!!!

These nightmares of our lives can go to the deepness of our soul but..

Where will it take us 

Where will it take me

We chase our dreams. In Hoping!!!

But our nightmares keeps us still….

Just Frozen…

See if you’re not understanding the motion of what is now of our dreams, our hopes in a nightmare. 

Then how can we understand ourselves in reality.

How can we understand the truth to what is fantasy.

But Maybe i’m just daydreaming

And reality has turned into a fantasy

But My nightmares just keep me in my place.

I’m running, jumping, dipping and dodging but still… 

These nightmares be chasing!!

Im just HOPING!!

That one day I can get out of this nightmare, get back to reality

And live the American Dream..

A Wife, and Kids, the career of my choosing

But These nightmares.

They still wont stop 

THey have pushed me to the wall

At Gun Point telling me.

Fall!!

Not on my knees but in a hole 6 feet under

Just silence.

I got my Eyes closed with my arms in the air

Im Just Hoping!!

And Im Thinking Should i just jump? 

Let my dreams win so it can all stop

And I begin falling 

Falling down this hole think I should already be awake

But it’s never ending

As soon as i find to see the light 

I’m opening my eyes, waking up in my room having to 

Start reality over again… The nightmares all over again